I've been meaning to do this for so long now, and I've just been so busy that I haven't actually gotten the chance to SIT DOWN and think about what I wanted to write. Now, I'm bored at work, so here it goes! :)~
I have been unhappy with my body image for a very long time. Probably since middle school. As a young child, I was active (in dance & karate!) & was very thin.... my doctor even referred to me as "underweight". But that all changed in middle school. I got bigger, and bigger. I cheered, played volleyball, basketball, and some stuff that I can't even remember (now I feel old.)! But still, I ate whatever I wanted... whenever I wanted. Sweets, fast food, anything that made me "feel better". I pretended not to care....but I did. Underneath it all, I always cared. I was never able to get undressed in the locker room without feeling self conscious. I was never able to wear a bikini like all the other girls at school. Somehow, I always felt ashamed of myself. Fast forward to high school years- still overweight. I think I was in a size 9 my freshman year.... by the time I graduated I was in an 18. That's DOUBLE in pants sizes!! I never had a boyfriend, never went on dates, but I always had friends. I am a social butterfly - I have my dad to thank for my crazy personality! Right before I graduated, I lost about 30 pounds (for prom). I worked a job after school & went to cosmetology school...I was a busy girl!
Fast forward another year- I met Michael, my amazing husband. I stayed down those 30 pounds for that year and we met and fell in love...blah blah blah. You get the picture ;) I gained some weight before I got pregnant with my son... I guess it was kind of like the freshman 15. Only it was probably about 25 or 30 for me. Gained about 45 more pounds with my son, and then lost 20 when I had him. I had no motivation to lose weight.
Fast forward to May 2013- my husband leaving for Qatar. I am maxed out (higher than I was when I was pregnant) at 242 whopping pounds. I am 5'1 people! That is unacceptable... unhealthy, unattractive, and so many other words come to mind. So I decided it was FINALLY TIME. Time to take care of myself, not only for ME, but for my son... and for my husband. With him gone, I've really been able to focus on my goal. Everytime I think about eating something I'm not supposed to, I just think to myself; "nothing tastes as good as skinny WILL feel." So I'm now down 33 pounds (almost halfway to my goal of 70 before next May, when my husband comes home! yay) and feeling better than ever. I'm SO close to being out of the 200 club I can TASTE IT!!! (that would be in the form of a rice cake, or a shakeology...duh). Feel free to ask me any questions you may have - I'd be happy to help. And please, keep it positive! The amount of positive feedback I've gotten so far is amazing - and it DEFINITELY helps to keep me motivated!!!!
Love y'all!
The Diet Diva
Everything you're doing is working so nothing I could suggest would work any better than what you're already doing but for fun I do have a things to share! The UP band by Jawbone is a really cool gadget (pricy but worth it) that makes you more aware of how you move and sleep. It works with an app on your iPhone and another awesome app I'm using is called Lose It. Neither are crucial to your weight loss journey, but both are amazing additions. So if you try them, I'd love to know what you think - you could get started with the Lose It app right away!
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